Month: May 2003

  • Sunday, May 25 2003

    So I went straight from
    work friday afternoon to Animazement.  As I walked into the door i was
    immediately greeted by Scott, Dewee and TJ.  Pretty good timing considering
    they didnt know i was coming friday night.  So i went to get registered and
    went into the anime music video contest.  2 hours of fan created music
    videos.  3rd place was Kingdom hearts, 2nd was i forget right now, but 1st
    was the Yatta video. and i dunno if i spelled that right.  Took some
    pictures and the like, and browsed around a bit.  We were going to the
    dance, but considering it was supposed to start at midnight and at 12:30 it
    still hadnt started, we decided to leave.  Came back saturday, did some
    dealer room shopping, took lots of pictures.  Saw Arjuna in one of the
    video rooms.  I’ve already seen it once, and decided to buy it, but i
    wanted to see it on the big screen cuz it’s such a wonderful episode.  Hung
    around and just had some fun, went to eat and came back for cosplay.  we
    didnt wait in line, just waited around until the line finally did make it all
    inside and then went in.  the guy saw i had a video camera and offered for
    me to go up front with it and i said i’d be just as happy if he’d let me stand
    against the back wall and that he did.  i got pretty much the entire
    cosplay on tape, except for obvious nulls and tape and battery changes.
    afterwards, we exited, and found a tv nearby that was showing the rewards part
    of it, so we hung around there, especially because rikku, yuna and leena were
    there and i got some good pictures of them.  then we observed some great
    hackysacking in the hallways while we waited for the dance.  finally, that
    started and me and scott joined in there.  we didnt dance although we did
    join the conga line as it went around the dance floor.  i was disappointed
    in the music they were playing, i was expecting it to be jpop but it was mostly
    american music.  ahh well still cool.  i finally got home around 3
    sunday morning or so.  i will spare you the details but i found another
    dog, so i had to take care of him.  i then took a shower and went to bed.
    i think it was daylight by then.  so mostly today i slept.  i’ve
    messed around with some of the video i got.  i’ll make something out of it
    sometime soon.  listening now to a new Ayumi Hamasaki CD i bought there,
    Rainbow and its definitely pretty cool.  please check out my pictures i
    took at the con!  click on the left to con reports and follow the link to
    animazement 2003.  write me!

  • Wednesday, May 21, 2003

    i’ve had some sort of cold thing for a
    week now.  i’m almost better, but not back to normal yet.  although
    normal isnt quite here anyway, and here isn’t normally abnormal except for the
    times i’m around, which is normal.  Just to continue the story, this past
    weekend i buried 2 more dogs, and i buried 2 more last night.  my house is
    not the place for a dog to have puppies apparently.   now, my yard is
    full of graves and my house will be haunted.  in other news.  my tv
    season is over.  maybe i can concentrate on other things during the time i
    would normally be watching 24 and american idol and simpsons.  i’m trying
    to gear up to write some more on my new web site.  i’m trying to write more
    in general.  in fact, there will be a new poetry item posted tonight.
    been on a slight roll as compared to previous months.  this coming weekend
    is
    animazement.  i’ll be there,
    probably going friday night and back for saturday.  i want to see the music
    video contest which runs friday night. they do a replay of it saturday during
    the day, but i want to be sure i can take pictures and videos and attend some
    classes too.  twill be fun.  as such, be prepared sometime in the near
    future for me to update my con reports page with the new pics.

  • Monday, May 12, 2003

    If you live in DC i
    probably think you’re an ass, unless you work for lonestar in fredricksburg. I
    left monday night right after work, drove up to DC and stopped to get some
    supper at lonestar.  i continued on my way until i finally got to dc and
    found about where i needed to be.  i decided to drive around some since it
    was only about 9:30 pm or so.  i followed the road i was on, not turning
    off that way i could just turn around and go back.  did some sight seeing.
    i got to the end of the road a while down and turned around to come back.
    i started to look for a hotel, and found several, but they were either taken or
    outrageous in price.  like 300 bucks outrageous.  ’emergency’ rate
    they said.  so i finally, after getting lost, found a hotel that would take
    me and i didnt care about the price because it was already after 11:00 pm.
    it was a doubletree hotel, and pretty nice.  too bad i was only going to be
    there for no more than 10 hours.  and i had to sleep through most of that.
    woke up at 7 to get ready for my class and went on.  got lost going to my
    class and ended up getting there at 9:15 at my 9:00 class.  oh well.
    no one cared.  after class, i left for home and of course got lost again.
    the roundabout got me.  ughghh i hate those things.   no one
    wants to let you in, everyone wants you out once you get in and going around in
    circles with about 50 other cars in 4 lanes while trying to find the correct
    exit out of it is not fun, if not impossible.  i hate them.  hate.
    i would of been perfectly fine if i hadnt of ran into that thing.  but
    since i did, i got lost, i didnt know where i exited, i couldnt figure out how
    to get back so i just drove.  i picked a direction and just drove on that
    road because i knew eventually it would lead me to the highway that circles the
    city.  that it did.  after about 30 minutes later.  but once i
    got on that i was fine, i knew my way home so off i went.  i stopped once
    for gas, other than that i trucked it down 95, 85 and 1 all the way until i got
    home.  didnt even stop to eat supper.  total trip was about 560 miles.
    and i was very tired.

    i spoke with pretzelboy and berb this
    weekend after we went to see xmen 2 which was awesome.  i talked about my
    writing, or lack thereof.  my writing doesnt live up to my own standards.
    but i’m trying.  and even though i think its mundane to write about my
    everyday activities, maybe you enjoy it.  so i’ll try to write more.
    here’s an insight into my current life.  if it doesnt depress you then i
    dont know what else will.

    i’m not sure how i got here.
    feels like things are falling apart actually.  i got in a wreck a few weeks
    ago.  i’m ok, messed up my neck a little, but its normal for me for that to
    happen.  i’m feeling better now.  anyway, i’m driving a rental now.
    car’s in the shop.  maybe i’ll get it by the weekend, but i kinda doubt it.
    i’m not happy with my home life.  i have too many dogs.  i have 2
    litters of puppies.  the first litter, they just dont like people a lot.
    cept for one puppy, he liked me.  so i gave him a bath, and after getting
    complaints about all my dogs, got a fence and put him in it.  i tried to
    capture the other dogs, but they got used to my trap and wont let me trap them.
    when i did trap them, i would try to put them in the cage, and they would bite
    me pretty good, i’d get them in and they’d get out by the end of the day.
    meanwhile, another dog had puppies.  i got those dogs and put them in the
    pen so maybe i’d have a better chance of them liking me.  they seem nice to
    me pretty much.  so now i got too many dogs.  out of all the dogs i
    have i only want 3.  tio who is mommy to litter 1, murray who is the mamma
    of litter 2, and pitter who murray is the mamma of.  my dads dog took up
    here a long time ago and has never left.  2 of murray’s old puppies are
    around and wont go away.  and i have all these puppies.  they make
    noise, eat up some food, require me to constantly keep them in the cage.
    murray can always find a way out, or make a way out.  then i have to fix
    the wiring almost everyday.  well one day, i come home and one of murray’s
    puppies is lying in the cage, dead.  not very unusual for her puppies to
    die, i dont know what it is about her, but a lot of her puppies dont survive.
    so i buried him.  that was maybe 2 weeks ago.  then last week,
    thursday, i get home from work and see one of my puppies has caught his leg in
    between a bucket and the bucket handle.  he appeared dead.  so i went
    to check on him and he’s very much alive.  i lift the handle and pick him
    up, and his leg just dangles.  there’s a large hole in his inner joint and
    the water that was in the bucket is a nasty brown.  the hole stunk, flies
    were all around it.  his leg had separated from his hip completely.
    put peroxide on him and doctored him up a bit.  then late at night i put
    him back in his cage so he could be with the other dogs.

    friday morning, i called the vet, and had to ask them to put
    him to sleep for me.  i dont have the money to spend to fix him.  i
    dont know if they even could fix him.  so they told me to come in, but it
    woudl be a while.  so i went outside and dug his grave, while he watched
    me.  i wonder if he knew what i was doing, or what would happen.  i
    got done, put him in a carrying case and took him to the vet.  walked in,
    they took the case in the back and had me wait.  i waited.  i declined
    to be present while they did it. 5 minutes later they called me up.  i went
    up, paid my bill of about $35 dollars and they handed me my case back.
    inside was a small plastic bag with the pre-printed words ‘rest in peace’.
    i declined to have them dispose of the dog for an extra $35.  i could bury
    him just as easily.  i put him back on the front seat and drove back home.
    took the bag out of the case and took it to the hole i dug.  i emptied him
    out of the bag and he fell out just as limp like.  almost poured out.
    just 15 minutes before this, i had him in my arms telling him he’ll feel better
    soon.  i situated him in the hole and covered him up with dirt.  took
    a shower and went straight to work.  by saturday, an ad was appearing in
    the paper for free puppies.

    saturday, i woke up and my power was out.  so i went over
    to pretzel boys house and we hung it out.  i got home sat night and power
    was restored.  sunday, i woke up and was preparing to start on some yard
    work.  i had to go to my moms lake house sunday afternoon for a mothers day
    supper thing.  so i had to get my grass cut in the morning.  i got a
    phone call from someone who wanted to see my puppies, i said come on, gave
    directions and they said they’d be here in an hour.  so i went outside, and
    checked out all the puppies in the fence and saw they were all fine.  i
    gave them food and the like and in my going abouts, i looked under my shed to
    find another dead dog.  this was from tio’s litter.  i contemplated
    leaving him there until the person came to look at the puppies.  maybe he
    wouldnt see him.  then i thought maybe he would smell him and that would
    make me seem bad.  so i decided to rush and bury him before he arrived.
    and that i did, i dug another grave, #3 now, dug the grave, and put him in and
    covered him up good. not long afterwards, the guy came to look at my puppies.
    he said he’d think about it and get back with me after he looks around.  i
    cut my grass, and went to the lake that afternoon.

    monday, today.  i get home from work.  i check out
    the puppies, they seem fine.  i go to get some dog food, take it out there
    and notice one of the dogs isnt as happy as normal.  he looked up at me and
    i asked him what was wrong.  he didnt respond.  he didnt look good.
    so i went in the fence, and shooed away the flies.  i petted him and he
    sighed.  i picked him up and he just didnt seem to care.  he was very
    limp.  extremely limp.  i picked him up and he felt limp as the other
    dog i had put to sleep, cept he wasnt asleep.  i had to support every part
    of his body when i picked him up or i was afraid it would fall down and break
    his bones.  especially his head.  i put him out of the fence and took
    him towards the house.  i layed him out on the ground and petted him.
    he was so limp, i just cant describe it.  never seen a live animal like
    that.  his breath already smelt of dead dog.  he didnt say much, didnt
    even blink.  i went in and got him some water.  i opened his mouth and
    poured it in.  i gave him 3 bowls full of water.  i would lift up his
    lip and it would stay up, thats how limp he was.  i felt like he’d been
    drugged or poisoned or something.  so i gave him all the water he would
    drink.  he did start to swallow it.  and i rubbed him and played with
    his legs to give him some movement and turned him over a few times so he’d be
    comfortable.  he would move his legs a bit occasionally.  but his
    whole body was still just as limp.  i found my self watching his body
    breathe in and out and when he breathed out, i’d push on his ribs to help him
    let it out and back in.  i got up to go get the dog food i had took to the
    fence, and came back with a handful to give to him.  and as i went to put
    it in his mouth, he moved his legs.  all his legs moved.  in fact they
    were straightening out.  his entire body curled up, his back arched and his
    head bent inward.  i hit him several times. hard.  he just kept
    curling up.  threw up the water i gave him.  i pushed in and out of
    his rib cage.  he didnt seem to be moving it.  i pushed on him until i
    could hear the breath coming out of his body.  i continued, i lifted him up
    by his hind legs to see if water would come out, some did.  he was so limp
    he was swaying.  i layed him back down and continued to push on him for a
    while, hoping something would happen.  but it never did.  he had died
    right there in my arms.  after the realization i cant do any more, i got up
    and started working on his grave.  while i was digging, i checked under the
    shed again because i smelt something bad, and sure enough there’s another dead
    dog under the shed.  i dug a grave for two tonight.  so it had to be
    pretty big.  i got it big enough, and had to get the dog out from under the
    shed.  he was under it pretty good.  i had to get a hoe out and pull
    him out from under it.  so that i did and layed his almost stiff body in
    the bottom of the grave.  i instinctively patted him on his stomach and it
    made a very loud hollow sounding thump.  i covered him some with dirt, more
    deep thumping sounds, and went to get the other dog.  i picked him up and
    he swayed back and forth as i carried  him to the hole.  i layed him
    in it too and covered them both up.  as i finished, and drug the dirt on
    top to level it out, i stepped on it to pack it down.  the dirt sank a good
    few inches.  and i continued to pack it down until i couldn’t anymore.
    last i checked, all my dogs were still alive.

    I changed clothes, got my bank deposit ready i needed to make,
    headed up to town.  stopped in subway to get supper.  its already past
    9:00 pm at this point and after what i just went through i dont wanna cook.
    so go in, and they’re playing our local G105 radio station.  on comes
    aerosmith.  or so i thought. then m&m comes on and starts ‘rapping’ or
    whatever he does.  i shake my head and the lady looks at me and i say im
    shaking my head because i cant believe this song is for real.  and we talk
    about who is better, which version of the song is better.  and all that.
    she asks if i want chips and drink and i say yes.  i reach for the chips.
    i get baked Doritos.  i look at the back instantly and read it.  she
    says, ‘you on a diet?’  and you cant possibly appreciate that unless you
    know how skinny i am.  and i hesitated for a minute because she actually
    caught that.  i pull out the regular Doritos and point out it has 13 grams
    of fat.  this baked has 4 grams.  and i say not many people realize
    how much fat it has in it.  even though i’m skinny, that doesnt mean i dont/cant
    watch what i eat.  i go over to my friend scott’s house.  i needed to
    pick up something from him. he showed me some animatrix previews, which looks
    awesome.  he also showed me his anime music video him and a friend just
    finished making.  still some final touches, but for the most part its
    through.  too bad its too late to enter it in this years
    animazement.  went home, took a
    shower, ate supper and here i am.  night
    write me, i’m lonely

    putting a new work on the site tonight.  and it was even written last night
    before all this crap today!

  • Monday, May 5, 2003

    wish me luck, leaving in a bit for DC for a

    class tomorrow with Microsoft
    .  Will be back sometime Tuesday night.
    about a 4.5 hour drive!  whew.