Category: General

New web cam
software, seeing as how Logitech seemed to take out all custom functions in
their new version of the quick cam software.  So i’m trying out some new
stuff.  While i was here, i cleaned up the pages a bit.  Yea, i know,
a lot of the old banners aren’t here anymore.  no one clicked on them
anyway, the accounts had already been turned off for inactivity.  thanks
for your support.  yea, i know, i removed a lot of the old news from the
main page. no one read it anyway.  thanks for your support.  i’m
leaving up the paypal logo and the top banner ads.  no one clicks on them
anyway, but if you did click on something those are the two best things to click
on.  thanks for your support.  page hits are down, and this site was
never about hits, or making money.  it was about me sharing my ideas with
you.  it’s about my poetry, stories, music, and my odd news
commentary.  just me being me.  i even share
pics
of myself sometimes.  however, since October 12, there have only been 8
different visitors to this site.  That number may actually be higher, i’m
not counting IP addresses that are showing up in the logs, only IP’s that have a
reverse dns entry, for instance i can tell that someone from aol
came here, or mindspring, or the
like.  some don’t’ have a name though.  so what’s the deal.  what
more do you want?  free porn is always a good thing to attract people, but
i’ve had people i care for tell me they wouldn’t link to my page if i had porn
(although its a moot point since she’s never linked to me anyway ahem.. 😉 , so
i’m not going to go that route.  give away free things?  ha!  if
i actually made a penny from this site, i’d be ecstatic, and free things have to
be paid for by someone.  to be honest, as of this very second, i have made approximately
$2.50 from this site since i launched it in june of 2001.  so what else
could i offer?  i could write about my pathetic life more.  i have
tried to keep my personal life out of the site.  when i feel down and i
think it can’t be worse, i read something
awful, or stileproject.
a day in the life of stile
just sucks so bad, it will make anyone’s life seem like a walk in the clouds.
do you know what all these little words with underlines are for?  that
means you can click on them.  it means it will take you somewhere else so
you can waste more time.  examine some of the links i post, they are there
for a reason.  and like the last 2 links, they don’t always take you to the
same place just because i’m talking about the same thing.  the links i
choose to include here compliment what i am writing.  use them.

fine,
you want pathetic life.  no problem.  although now i’m not in the mood
to write about my pathetic life, i’d rather write about my pathetic web
page.  i’d rather ramble about nothingness because that’s what blog‘s
are for.  i just added a new thingy to here, please rate my page using the
link on the right hand side there.  be honest, i dont’ care.  i just
want you to click on it.  you dont’ have to fill out anything, just click
on good or bad.  how hard is that?  yea, i removed all the real old
news.  dont worry, i still have it archived, just no way to get to it yet.
i’m a pack rat, i keep stuff forever.  i have all the news I’ve ever posted
to here, even my very first message.  organized by the month it was posted.
one day i’ll put that stuff up so you can get to it.  ramble ramble ramble
i keep old stuff.  i have a darth vader bank that was sold when the
original star wars came out, like in 1977.  i bet it’s worth something
now.  but i wouldn’t sell it.  it’s shaped like darth’s head.
made out of ceramic or something.  of course, there’s no money in it.
just like there’s no money in my checking account.  but i keep getting
these things from a credit card place that says  $4,200 on it, so that must
be where my money is. hmmm  ramble ramble

spam is
just terrible.  i mean email spam.  but as much as i hate it i would
like a targeted email system if i had to choose anything.  i don’t need to
loose 30 pounds in a week. i dont need a bigger penis, i dont’ need to increase
my breast size.  i don’t want a free camera, i dont need to investigate
someone, i dont need a divorce lawyer, i don’t want to reduce my long distance
costs, and i sure as hell don’t want fresh vegetables to use as sexual
toys.  ramble………………….

the anime convention
was most excellent.  i was waiting to post my report on it till i got my pictures
back, but they haven’t arrived yet.  8 rolls of film!!  we had a load
of fun though.  bush gardens was waaayyy too crowded.  we had to wait
in line just to cross over some of the big bridges there to get around the
park.  we waited 2 hours to ride alpengheist.  we didn’t even get to
ride one of the coasters there.  but i had to partake in our annual trip,
so i have not broken tradition.  ramble

music is music to
my ears.  i’ve been working on more dance techno style things.  i do
have some guitar songs done, but i haven’t recorded them good yet.  i’m
going to collaborate with pretzelboy  on making some pop dance style
stuff.  information society, hooverphonic, kind of stuff.  i’m going
to start dj’ing for my other friend who is getting some singing gigs. i have a
good feeling about that in several ways.  i need some equipment though, if
you have any PA eq to sell, let me know.  school sucks.  that’s all it
deserves now.  dance dance revolution is a great game.  they had a
tourney at the con.  i purchased the 5th mix soundtrack, and i love
it.  lots of good songs on there, introduced me to lots of good artists,
smile.dk, bambee, atomic kitten, e-rotic, aromabar, and even mike oldfield.
listening to aromabar -winter pagent now.  what part did i play??
good slow trance style.  purchased the full version of fruityloops this
week. i love it.  piano roll is very handy.  you can do amazing things
with this software.  contemplating purchasing Vegas audio/video for
multitrack editing.  there’s so many red squiggly lines on this page its
unreal. ohhh look theres one now, and another, and heres one too.  got new
eric clapton cd.  its ok.  still like unplugged better.  ramble
ramble……

i’m going to make a page with just ads
for dating services.  they will  help us losers out who are single and
hopeless, not to mention give me a small kickback.  they do work, its not
the services fault you are ugly and stupid and dont know anything.  but you
never know.  i want to change the way i display poetry here.  i want
to put each poem in its own file and have it randomly select a few to print when
you go to poetry.  i want to create a way i can add a poem from anywhere,
and news too.  all things i envisioned being able to do when i started
this.  just haven’t done it.  web page work has died down because i’ve
lost interest.  not this site, but my other commercial sites.  plus
lack of money hurts too :(.  but i do have ventures lets just leave it at
that.  i dont know where i will be long term.  not computers.
computers is a job.  it pays bills.  i do enjoy it, and am competent
at the things i do.  i could do more.  but it’s not my thing.
i’m creative.  i want to create things.  that’s the only reason i
really wanted to do web pages because i would be creating something.  but
that’s not artistic.  i want to be a famous poet.  i want to be known
in the underground circuits as a great song writer.  long term goals
here.  work gets in the way of my ambitions.  i need to learn and
practice.  im tired of this A+ certification class i’m taking.  as
soon as it’s over, i’m finding a guitar or some kind of music class.  i’ve
never taken any music lessons in my life.  all i know i have taught
myself.  i could do more.  i know no music theory cept if it sounds
good go with it.  sometimes that’s all you  need though.

i’m
sick.  it hurts to breathe, it hurts to drink a glass of milk.  i love
milk.  i didn’t want to eat tonight, but i knew i had to.  i feel like
i can’t stay out of work.  i have 3 places to be already scheduled for the
morning.  maybe i’ll do those and go home.  i dont take vacation at
work because i’m afraid something will happen and no one will know what to
do.  besides, i dont’ have anyone to take vacation with anyway so it doesn’t
matter.  i was supposed to have taken a big trip to disney world September
for a whole week, but that got abruptly cancelled without my
participation.  i want to create a pathetic loneliness page that lists ways
to describe loneliness.  maybe a song, or poem.  but today’s addition
to the list is staying home sick and knowing there’s no one there to take care
of you.  i’m done.

Its time to spend
some gas, and take a little adventure to get away from this place!  This
Saturday marks our trip to Busch Gardens in Virginia.  If you’d like to
join our caravan just let me know.  Speaking of road trips, the weekend
after, the 26, 27 and 28th of October brings another trip back to Virginia for
Neko Con.  Three days
of fun and adventure in Virginia Beach.  If you’d like to join our party
there, just let me know.  All the beds in our hotel room are booked, but we
can rent out floor space!  Doesn’t this just set the tone for the con?
Check out a section of rules from the Cosplay “Remember no
costume is still no costume!!   Nudity on stage is really discouraged.
If you have a skimpy costume, be sure it’s secure enough that when you get on
stage, you don’t end up giving the judges and fans a show you will never forget
or possibly live down. Also, excessive use of foul language on stage will be
grounds for disqualification from competition and having Tex sicced on you. ”
The last anime con I went to which was earlier this year in Durham, NC ,
Animazement  really surprised me, and i enjoyed it a lot more than I
thought.  I wish i had a chance to participate in more of the events, so
now i got 3 days to do that!  Con is open day and night, 24 hours,
for all sorts of activities, games, movies, classes, hotel room parties, and of
course, lots of cute girls dressed as their favorite anime characters.
We’re gathering some people to go to
Animazement for 2002 in
May, if you’d like to join us, let me know.  Whats in store for Nekocon?
Here’s a quote from fansview – “NekoCon
returns to Virginia Beach, Virginia for its fourth year. Guests of honor include
singer and songwriter Mari Iijima, artists Fred Perry, John Barrett, Colleen
Doran and Robert DeJesus, animator Scott Frazier, Steven Bennett, Stephanie
Brown and Doug Smith of Studio Ironcat, costumer Nickey Froberg, Viz Video
producer Toshifumi Yoshida, The Right Stuf producer Jeff Thompson; Sean Carolan
& Jenn Moore, writers for the Power Puff Girls comic, and actor Michael
Brady.”

this is just too
funny to pass up and post lots and lots of links.  If you don’t love
me for this, i dont know what else to do for you.   Everyone cultured
on the internet should have already discovered the Bert
Is Evil site.  If not, looks like your too late, as of today, the
site’s index page says he is taking the site down.  Hmm, let me see if i
can find a mirror..Ok, here goes 😉  this mirror is working as of right
now, i can’t guarantee how long it will work though. 
check out bert is evil mirror.    Ok, now, we have
established the fact that Bert is evil.  Who else is evil?  At one
time, Microsoft
was more evil than satan himself.    and I’m so glad front
page is kind and knowledgeable enough to tell me that satan is supposed to be capitalized.
so, I’m leaving it as satan.  there.  anyway, so who is more evil than
Microsoft?  Well, Bin Laden of course!!  Right now, anyway.
Henceforth, what better duo in this evil world could we have than Bert and Bin
Laden??  Yep, that would be cool, but apparently our worst fears have been
realized.  Yep,  to quote a Yahoo news article:

Mysteriously, the image made the jump from the virtual world to the real one,
appearing on bin Laden placards at anti-American Muslim rallies in Bangladesh
over the past week.
The posters, which show a tiny Bert tucked between two images of bin Laden,
were clutched by seemingly unsuspecting demonstrators at rallies on October 5
and 9.

So, want my cool searching abilities to shine through?
Here is my collection of links i’ve found on this.  Notice my notes on some
of them, it appears that there is a discrepancy as to who actually created this
picture, and also as to who started the Bert Is Evil site.

Pictures:  http://dailynews.yahoo.com/h/p/nm/20011009/wl/imdf09102001085522a.html

http://dailynews.yahoo.com/h/p/ap/20011011/wl/1002816380bangladesh_osama_and_bert_ny180.html

http://dailynews.yahoo.com/h/p/nm/20011009/wl/imdf09102001085522a.html

http://dailynews.yahoo.com/h/p/nm/20011011/od/mdf67219.html

http://dailynews.yahoo.com/h/p/nm/20011011/wl/imdf11102001094315a.html

http://dailynews.yahoo.com/h/p/nm/20011005/wl/imdf05102001094431a.html

http://www.angelfire.com/de/cheatsbert/p3laden.html
– this guy claims to be the one who created the picture, according to the
site.  his name on the site is J-roen.

news :  http://plaza.v-wave.com/bert/realnews.htm

http://www.nypost.com/news/nationalnews/33725.htm
-hmmm this particular site quotes the dude at bert is evil as admitting that he
created the picture.  it lists the bert is evil page to be at http://www.spacecat.com/bert/
however, but it does look like a mirror of the site.  this site quotes
this:

 The site’s Canadian creator says the photo on the poster was taken from his
Web site. “That’s the exact same photo,” Dennis Pozniak told The Post
from Edmonton, Alberta.
Pozniak, 20, said he altered and posted the picture of bin Laden in 1998, but
took it off the Web site shortly after the Sept. 11 attacks after complaints
poured in.

http://dailynews.yahoo.com/h/nm/20011011/od/binladen_dc.html
– while this one says that he did NOT create it.  but, it also these
articles are talking about two different people!  hmmm  To quote
this article:  Part of the mystery can be traced to California.

A San Francisco artist, Dino Ignacio, in 1998 started a conspiratorial spoof site called “Bert is Evil,” in which Bert is inserted into famous historical photos.

He has appeared alongside Adolph Hitler and among a crowd in Dallas as John F. Kennedy’s motorcade passes.

Ignacio put a statement on his site, www.fractalcow.com, on Wednesday denying he was the creator of the Bert and bin Laden image.

“I just wanted to say I had nothing do to with this!” the statement reads. “This image has been e-mailed to me countless times since September 11. Yesterday a lot of you alerted me to a picture of a Taliban propaganda poster with Bert!”

http://dailynews.yahoo.com/h/eo/20011011/en/the_bert-bin_laden_connection__1.html

http://plaza.powersurfr.com/bert/exclu006.htm
–  Of course, you must get the
t-shirt!!

http://www.tctubantia.nl/CDA/regioportal/1,2078,1654__772741_,00.html
– i have no idea what this site says on it, but it has a pic of the poster.

http://www.wired.com/news/conflict/0,2100,47450,00.html
– I love wired.

http://www.lindqvist.com/bert.php
– Conspiracy theories are neato.  This site claims that there is actually a
picture put out by the AP where these news pics come from that has been edited
to take Bert OUT!  hmmm   This site has lots of information and
links and pics and things so have fun.

http://www.plastic.com/article.pl?sid=01/10/10/1458231
– Here’s a great discussion on the news/discussion site Plastic.

http://www.geocities.com/freethoughtmecca/disney.html
– Disney Vs. Makkah??

http://www.snopes2.com/rumors/bert.htm
– Rumor site that does some dirty work to see if popular rumors are true or not.

http://groups.google.com/groups?q=Osama+Bin+Laden+Bert+Sesame+Street&hl=en&rnum=1&selm=7906va%24kec%241%40nnrp1.dejanews.com
– OK, this is a post from some guy back in 1999 saying that Osama had appeared
in a Sesame Street show on PBS once.  The links to the pics didn’t work for
me, maybe they’re overloaded now.  This guy also goes on to say that Osama
really doesn’t exist!!

Lets throw in some other humorous links
while we’re at it!!

http://www.geocities.com/TimesSquare/4602/balls.html

http://www.theforbiddenknowledge.com/wtc/index02.htm
– gesh, someone has way too much time on their hands.  here’s lots of ways
to get lots of numbers out of the WTC stuff.

http://66.70.197.89/ubb/Forum3/HTML/000011.html
– edited pics of osama and his buddies

http://bressler.org/response.asp?mid=452
– this sites Osama’s hate page, lots of pics

New October poetry
can be found in the poetry section!  Check it out.

And i’m
just full of info hu?  well, i found some new links.  Here’s
a picture from the terra satellite from NASA of the area.  Here is one report
on the status of our US intelligence in the middle east area.  here is
an older report
from 1998 as well on the same thing. Are you into seeing
things in clouds?  Have you seen a prediction from Nostrodamus about
the city of gods and the stricking of thunder? its not
a nostrodamus prediction.

And i’m
just full of info hu?  well, i found some new links.  Here’s
a picture from the terra satellite from NASA of the area.  Here is one report
on the status of our US intelligence in the middle east area.  here is
an older report
from 1998 as well on the same thing. Are you into seeing
things in clouds?  Have you seen a prediction from Nostrodamus about
the city of gods and the stricking of thunder? its not
a nostrodamus prediction.

if you dont know of
the terrible tragedy here in USA yet, you are severely deprived.  read up
on www.cnn.com or something.  anyway for
my special take on the whole thing:  i found some pictures and stuff around
the net about the situation.  some of these came from the wonderful www.stileproject.com
so give them a visit sometime.  Most of the following i’ve pulled from IRC
chat’s i’m on now.  Very interesting stuff, give me props for being your
favorite news site, ok?

The freakiest thing i have seen is this set of posts on a
newsgroup from a guy called

Xinoehpoel.  Google
can be wierd to navigate, so I’ll copy the important ones here.

On August 31, he posted this:

someone replied with this:

Dear Xin,

The first post in this thread was from you, saying that
something was going to happen on August 31, and that you
would tell us what that thing was after it happened,
presumably on September 1.  I was only noticing that you
hadn’t followed through on what you said you’d do, and
instead had only written, “This is a witness against
everyone on this newsgroup.”

Now you write, “Since when do I post prophecies, other
than end of the world ones?”  Are you now saying that you
are taking back your promise to tell us the thing that you
said was going to happen on August 31?  Or are you saying
that the thing that happened August 31 was a witness against
everyone in this newsgroup, with no more specification than
that?

Just looking for some consistency and follow through from
you.  I am interested in what happened on August 31 that
fulfilled your premonition of August 30.  Or has it not
happened yet, and you are going to tell us after it does,
whatever the date?

Peace,
Tom McDonald

Then on September 4, 2001, the Xin guy posted this in
response

Wait 7 days, and then maybe I’ll answer this post. You see, I
am going away
in seven days, and you will not hear from me again.

X
September 6, 2001 he posted this

I said it was a witness, ie. a testimony. The testimony always
comes before
the prophesied judgment. For if I no testimony had been delivered, you would
not be guilty of sin. If you’ve been tracking me at all, you know the
prophesies I have made. The testimony had nothing to do with any cataclysm
as you now suggest. Truly, you only see what you want to see, and for this
reason, people must be destroyed, because although they can see, they are
yet blind.

X
Finally on September 11, 2001 the day of this event he posted this:

There are lots of posts by him and replies from other
people on the newsgroups
Read the ones from
Xinoehpoel starting on August 31.

That dude scares me.

In case the links stop working, search for 911 in the nostradomas news group i think it is. Here’s the only place i’ve found
of footage of the first plane crashing into the WTC.

<Icos> If you want insignificant number coincidences, The plane numbers were 93 (9+3 = 11 today) 75 (7+5 = 12
tommorow) 175 (7+5+1 = 13 next day) and 77 (7 +7 = 14, the next day)

here is an old pic of the city view, you can clearly see the
towers in this one.  it
was so pretty.   Want to donate money to Red Cross?  Here’s
a very quick and easy way to do so.  Info on the guy
currently suspected to be involved with this.  Rumor has it the Exec
Producer of Frasier was on one of the planes and a couple of LA Kings Scouts,
and the guy who cofounded Akamai Tech.

Anyone into more predictions?  Not sure where these are
from but maybe Nostrodomas.  Bom-Skwad quoting HerbalK –

<BoM-SKwad> <HerbalK> At forty-five degrees, the sky will burn,
<BoM-SKwad> <HerbalK> Fire approaches the great new city,
<BoM-SKwad> <HerbalK> Immediately a huge, scattered flame leaps up
<BoM-SKwad> <HerbalK> When they want to have verification from the Norman
<BoM-SKwad> <HerbalK> (Century VI, Quatrain 97)

<BoM-SKwad> <HerbalK> Earth-shaking fire from the center of the earth.
<BoM-SKwad> <HerbalK> will cause the towers around the New City to shake,
<BoM-SKwad> <HerbalK> Two great rocks for a long time will make war,
<BoM-SKwad> <HerbalK> And then Arethusa will color a new river red.
<BoM-SKwad> <HerbalK> (Century 1, Quatrain 87)

Looked at the Riot cam
in Manhattan now, its after 1:00am and it is completely empty of people!
reports that people that are still trapped in the rumble who are alive are
calling family members with their cell phones.  just heard that two of the
flight attendants on one flight called for help because they had been stabbed
before they crashed into the center.   taleban
web site has been hacked.  not sure if it’s related to this
though.  Here’s another
site with archives of pics and movies. ok oh my god.  some one posted
this on irc and i saw the pic and thought it was new.  but apparently it is
not, in fact at least 3 months old because of times of print.  check
out this photo   that was posted in the October edition of Wired
page 170 as someone’s album cover.  Here’s a site that has even
more footage of the events  This game
is just soo sad.  And now i’ve lost track of the links i’ve
posted.  but here’s another one i don’t care if i repeat them. its tooo
late.  this one is of
more
pics and movies

Well it’s 2:00am now and i’ve done my civil duty.  Thanks
for staying tuned and checking on the site.  i’m going to keep my irc on
tonight and log everything, maybe some new info and links will pop up.  if
i get anything interesting it’ll be here later tomorrow.

Yep, it’s almost midnight and i haven’t eaten supper yet!  i was so tired
from staying out late last night i went to bed when i got home from work and
woke up around 10 or so.  Last night I went again to Crowley’s, open mic
night is awesome. Very talented set of musicians to go see if you are in the
area.

Well, i’ve decided to try something i hadn’t
tried before.  and i tell ya i think it’s pretty sweet, its acid.
yea, acid can so some crazy stuff and its really helped my creative
abilities.  therefore, go to my music section and download my 3 new songs
done while using acid.  its techno/dance style stuff.  of particular
interest there is a song dedicated to my work buddy Steve who thinks he knows
everything and is a general wise ass.  you know, pretty much like me.
no new poetry right now, that i can think of.

im gonna go make me a sandwich

New September
poetry:

If I have misled you
I didn’t think you would follow
If I have betrayed you
I didn’t think you would trust
If I have deceived you
I didn’t think you would believe
If I have corrupted you
I didn’t think you would listen
If I have tarnished you
I didn’t think you would admire
If I have disowned you
I didn’t think you were mine

It’s been a very long time since I have written a poem that did NOT get shared to anyone.  One that is so special, about a particular person,  and so precise to my life that it gets it’s own little file on my sacred hard drive.  Like I’m gonna tell ya!  so don’t even think about it!  if it’s meant for you then you will hear it one day.  i know this means jack to you because i’m talking about something you’ll never see, but its important to know that there are now a total of only 5 works in my little personal directory for my whole life. In related news, I HAVE added a few new poems to my poetry collection on here since the last update.  How to get to them?  Go to poetry and go to the August poetry, silly!

This is not to say that all my poetry is not about any one person in particular.  some of them are, in fact some of the august and july poems are about certain individuals, however, they aren’t special.  and the poetry isn’t special in that it is foreshadowing an unseen event as this newest one is.  for instance, for the july issue, poems written on the 10th are about one person (you must be dumb if you can’t figure that one out), the 19th is about another, 29th about the same 10th one.  In the august edition, the one on the 2nd is about a new lady, and the 5th an even different lady!  the one on the 19th is my feelings about the series escaflowne after i finished watching it that night.  All the others for those 2 months are just poems.  They may have been inspired by a particular person, feeling or event, but in general they are not "about" someone. anyway, just some info for you.  see if you can figure out who these named poems are about, betcha can’t.

during work today, the other guys and I were invited  to a recently shut down factory to see if there was anything we wanted to take off their hands.  it was very sad to see this huge building full of extremely large and hefty-duty machinery just sitting there.  the gentleman showing us around showing us what they were offering to get rid of.  we went into peoples offices and he pointed out the guy’s desk, chair, file cabinets, shelves, and the like thing and saying they were hoping to get rid of the stuff for even the smallest amount of money.  just so it can be taken off the site.  people worked at this company, some all of their lives I’m sure.  these items may be just items to us, but they were a part of their everyday life and belongings.  and here we are, a bunch of guys pointing at this guys huge desk, 21" computer monitor and the like things saying "yea i wouldn’t mind having that at home" and "i’d give them 5 bucks for that" sort of statements and it’s very sad.  the building is full of 53,000 pound machines (each), each costing $800,000 new and they are stripped down to parts, flushed of oil via a big tanker truck who pulled up to the building, just waiting to be sold to the highest bidder.  these machines provided food and shelter to families that worked them  in the area, the people are gone, and hustle and bustle of the site is gone, and now they are looking for a way to cut their losses any way they can.  that’s my reflection of today for ya

in the you did not need to know this department, my cats must have just laid a big one, because my bedroom now reeks and in the i noticed but didn’t care dept, i made all the dates in the entries here bold, so you can more easily see where the new news ends and the old begins