Sunday, February 24, 2002


Winter Olympics
have finally come to a close tonight.  If you didn’t
watch the closing ceremonies you missed a really great show.  It would have
been such an experience to be there.  This year, i followed the Olympics
more so than in any other year and i have to admit i got a bit excited quite a
few times.  Its amazing to me to watch some of these people who are
teenagers compete and win against people from all over the world.  I
watched Thursday night Sarah Hughes’s figure skating competition and was really
pulling for her. The expression on her face as she landed her first jump was
just unforgettable and really showed her emotions there.  and with each
successive jump, twist and turn she made her face lit up as she knew she just
gave the best performance she could possibly give.  The burden that was
placed on the remaining skaters that night must have been very heavy, each fell
once during their performance.  and even though Sarah was not
expecting to win at all, it was very fitting for her to get the gold that night.

Michelle Kwan
is such a beautiful and talented skater and it was sad to see
her lose the gold medal given her circumstances.  But, as everyone said,
she showed respect and grace to her competitors and accepted her medal and that
in itself is a sign of a good sport.  The closing ceremonies are off the TV
now for the local news, but as soon as they come back on, I’m on it.  I
just had to crank my stereo system up when Bon Jovi came on and played in the
middle of the giant snowball fight and the ice that was splattered with
florescent paint.  Those dinosaurs were really neat, but could you imagine
sitting in the stadium not knowing you had these huge creatures looming over
your head and you turn around to see one of them looking you in the eye?
gesh!  If i was athletic i would be inspired watching these guys.  but
I’m not.  as athletic as i get is saying I’m going to buy a bike and start
riding or that I’m going to start running.  I used to run a lot and i even
thought of taking up track in high school.  but for some reason i didn’t.
probably cuz i figured i wasn’t good enough.  story of my life.  one
of my thoughts still linger on.  i watched Sarah take the gold medal and
knew she was not expectnig to win it.  she did, and she’s now the best.
she worked 16 years to take the chance to go there, and she did and she won.
but now what?  its sad to me to think that i’ve worked for so long to
accomplish something and then i’m suddenly beating everyone to it.  what do
you do then?  she’s going to do tours around the country at local venues.
but so young in life and already have achieved something that people work
decades on.  i wonder if she’ll be in Greece next time.

Tuesday, February 19, 2002

ok, i have
figured out how to add the cool yahoo status to the page.  now you have no
excuse not to talk to me!!  so do it!! don’t worry, you wont be
interrupting any thing cuz no one else talks to me since they think they’re
interrupting me talking to someone i’m not talking to.  removed November
news, home page should load faster, and i’m gonna post some new poetry too as
soon as i finish typing this.  so check it out under the poetry links!!!
This is

Sunday, February 10, 2002

a few new bookmarks
have been added to my favorites in IE tonight,
pouet is a French site dedicated to the demo scene, but don’t worry, most of it
is in English!  scenemusic is a streaming radio station that plays music
from the demo/tracked scene.  but what’s so cool is it’s awesome interface.
you can request songs and view most popular songs and all sorts of stuff.
makes me want to redesign my entire web site.  😉  also, check out this is the flash of demo
coders.  nice demos on here, and if i can figure how to create some of
these things, I’ll make something one day.  I’ve always wanted to learn
flash and put a rendition of my nightly dreams online.  but realistically,
i don’t know flash, and realistically i wouldn’t do it every day, and
realistically, I’m not artistic.  i just have ambitions.

Tuesday, February 5, 2002

If you like
techno, dance music and you like video games, check out
Lots of remixed game music on there, all very good.  So what’s my story
today?  Well, I went to get my hair cut.  My step-mom’s going to
school for cosmetology and she does a mighty fine job.  check out my new do
on the cam.  She even cooked some supper for me, its rare i get a nice
cooked meal anymore.  And to top off all the excitement of this food and my
new haircut, i just had to have a tragedy happen.  going down the road and
i must of hit a damn hole or something in the road and instantly had a flat
tire.  or maybe it just decided to blow on its own.  i was trapped.
i pulled over beside some old barn and called the roadside assistance.
paying all this money for this new Sebring, i’m gonna use it if i got it.
so i did and the lady was asking where i was at, and i told her i didn’t know, i
was driving and it just happened.  i gave her an approximate of where i
was, and they took all my info and all that jazz and had their so smart computer
call me back and tell me how long it would be before someone would get there.
35 minutes.  so i waited and waited.  and i thought you know, if i
really wanted to i could have done it myself in 35 minutes.  but it was so
cold, i had my work clothes on and my new shoes and gonna get a haircut and eat
some food and all that jazz and i was gonna use my newfound help from this car
deal.  so the guy arrived and did his thing and that was that.

its getting close to valentines day, and each day of my
miserable life that i check the yahoo personals it kindly reminds me how many
more days it is to valentines day.    like the race is on or
something.  and as i continue with my pathetic little soul searching
adventure to
and and and and so on and so
forth its like you have to have a partner for valentines day.  not because
you are gonna be lonely, or whatever other reason there could be to remind you
of how much of a failure you are, but because if you don’t have a date for
valentines, you won’t be buying any cards, going out to eat, sending flowers.
its all a corporate sponsorship now.  as long as you have a partner on
valentines, you must buy something.  and its evolved so much into other
things like buy her a new car, buy him a new truck,
buy her a
nice stereo system
.. I’ve gotten so many emails of a special on this for
valentines and you can win this for valentines.  blow it.  reminds me
of a show i watched recently on pbs about how the American culture is changing
because of media and corporations.  basically it all comes down to those
who hate the mainstream stuff delve into their own little worlds.  get
interested in strange bands, only watch certain tv shows, listen to certain
music because that makes them different.  and being a part of that group
that listens to so and so band is a feeling of togetherness with all the others
who listen to said band.  your own little family of people who don’t want
to have a family.  all these kids who will no longer listen to parents and
situational tv shows and teachers and things because they are mainstream.
turns out, in the end to get a message across to a kid, it must be corporate
sponsored.  saving the planet is not cool, but MTV saving the planet is
cool and if i could pick up some trash while listening to puff daddy rap or do
what ever it is he calls what ever it is that he does then that’s all right.